The Daily ME: 'That special space!'

-

 




Hyderabad,  9:30 pm.

Dear D-bhai,

I have been thinking about new things entering my life, or may be not entering my life at all. I am placed in this new 'space' which we all know as a 'CITY'. The city is that new to me, that I am jumping into myself to find answers.

Though Corona has made me lose some of my close elders and we have changed cities and our base. But then, in the whole process, I realise, that I am gaining this new  learning about silence.

I am finding one new friend here, but then again, at the end of the day, I am getting back to that space, with myself. I am really enjoying this special space!

Every night, when I lie down to think about the whole day, I realise how fortunate I was doing these little things! What are they?

These little things have been gardening, enjoying my sunrise views, respecting food, doing Yoga, talking to weird things like the sun, the wind and the beautiful sky!

I am writing and enjoying my space of being lost!

But then, I realise that this space of being lost is mine. It is completely MINE. 

D-bhai, you will always be mine!

I am not aiming or yearning for something BIG, like the others. Why am I getting doubts about these stupid things, which are non-existential? But these are questions which do not have an answer.

But do they need an answer? I don't think so.

Will get up tomorrow, and continue this beautiful process. After all, it is my space.

I will continue to value this space. Always.

Good night D-bhai.


Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

The TEA garden visit!

-
Image
Priyanka Vadra in a tea Garden in Assam  8:08 pm, Jorhat First of all, I am really sorry for not posting my blog this Sunday. I have been busy buying, setting my new house here. But meanwhile, I along with my wife took a short trip in the city, to the world famous tea gardens. I had always seen them in movies or television. In fact, recently I saw an image of Priyanka Vadra visiting a tea garden (image). Jorhat is not huge city, but it is a town of a good size, where all the points of my motive, have been just around 15 to 20 minutes. That is the size of the town.  We have recently bought a two-wheeler and it has come as a boon to travel across the city. We have bought a sky-blue coloured Vespa (Pic) and we are loving taking random trips on it. Our new Vespa. The Estate Entrance So this Sunday morning, we got ready and left for Cinnamara tea estate, Jorhat. It was established in the year 1850, by the British East India company. The land was owned by Maniram Dewam, who later to...
Read more

Memories of my 'Chhote Mama'!

-
Image
Hyderabad,  August, 2020. When he was born, he was the younger brother. So, his parents named him 'Chhote'. Even his younger siblings called him 'Chhote' bhaiyya (younger brother). My chhote mama recently passed away because of Covid. It is painful, because it happened very soon, and from a man who was walking freely, to a straight pan dead body! I don't want to cry now, because I have admired my Chhote mama's (uncle) positive patience, always from a very young age. It is one feature of his personality which I had admired.  I am sharing some of the memories, which I have cherished all my life, some memories, which are pretty clearly imprinted on my mind, some time I had spent with him alone. Let us begin: MEMORY-1 Secunderabad, 1994 I was little! My mama had come to our place in Trishul Line, Secunderabad. These are some very clear visual memories of Trishul line. Our house was on the ground floor. He had come home.  He asked me, "Do you sleep outside?...
Read more

"Yes, Affirmative!"

-
The morning with that soothing sunrise, good enough to bid the sleepy eyes goodbye, asks me a simple question, 'are you ready for the war?' I get up and answer, 'yes, affirmative'! Morning laughs and says, "ARE YOU SURE?" I make up my mind and start the day. That distant college through a bike ride, those colleagues with shaky hugs and kisses. That subject which i don't like, that teacher with a frown set right. I ask myself, "Are you sure?" The noon with the sun overhead, trying to push me back to those sleepy eyes. The labs with that stunned darkness, ask me the question again, "Are you sure?" i think again and i search for the answer deep inside, it is still, 'yes, AFFIRMATIVE!' i lie down on the bed those questions again, the words 'affirmative' and 'yes' ask me again, "Are you sure?" i don't say a thing, i close my eyes and look back at those bike rides to college, those shaky hugs and kisses, ...
Read more